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And that was the day that I promised
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I'm sixteen, but definitely not sweet. Currently facing (and loathing) my freshman college life as an AB Broadcast Journalism student. I have a tendency to be lost in my imaginations and daydreams. I'm sarcastic. I cuss. I'm moody. I have my fair share of complexities - though I sometimes think I got too many. Likes: Books, Country and Punk Rock music, Gossip Girl, Grey's Anatomy, Red, 19th century era, Chace Crawford, Jacob Black, trivias, chocolates Dislikes: Slow and sentimental songs, Harry Potter, Bella Swan, predictable telenovelas here in the Philippines, Justin Bieber, Math, Any kind of sports, K-Pop I don't know what I want. So don't ask me coz I'm still trying to figure it out.
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Wednesday, November 25, 2009
Goodbye to you my trusted friend Comments: 1 comments | Leave a Comment
Dear Diary,I don't know if I should call this day as Doomsday. I mean, I should be happy right? But I can't really feel it. Our separation gave me mixed feelings - sadness and happiness. I've been with her for three years. I've been a witness to her mood-swings. I'm the only one who comforts her everytime she's down, and I'm always there to rejoice with her whenever she's happy. During the first year of us being together, I saw her holding me while she's wishing for her crush to text her. And I was there, praying with her. It was the happiest moment of my life. At last, I felt how being a friend means. During those times, I felt like I was her bestfriend. But that was before... I've been usually unhappy. Being kept in a storage cabinet is a big deal, you see. I loathed the four-cornered box I was kept in. I want to breathe. I'm sick of my life back then. Until a wide-eyed girl with eyeglasses gave me what I want. Freedom, at last. I first saw her with tears in her eyes. Apparently, the reason was her mother kept insisting to buy a cellphone somewhere else. And the wide-eyed kid wants me. How touching, right? I've seen those teary eyes turn bright when she touched me - for the first time. I don't know if she had seen me smile, but I definitely did. I'm grateful to her because she took my loneliness away. We shared a lot of happy and sad moments since then. She took a lot of pictures using me. Aaahhh you'll never know how it feels to have your owner smile back at you! She didn't let me look like a trash of course. She bought lots of cellphone holders for me. At that time, I felt like I was the most important thing in her life because she's always looking for me everytime she wakes up, or comes home. She never lets go of me everytime we're together. My first few years with her are very memorable. I'm always happy. Until it changed. I don't know how it all started. One day I woke up and realized she doesn't love me as much as she did before. She started noticing other cellphones - and boy! she wants them. I kept hearing her talking with her sister how she wants a better phone. Those who have 3megapixel cameras and 2GB memory. Of course I don't have features like that. And it hurt me. I want to be the best for her. But she already thinks I'm one of those "losers". She doesn't want me anymore. She doesn't take care of me. She removed the little trinkets she put on me. She started leaving me anywhere. And she let me fall on the floor for so many times. I can feel my body filling up with scratches and dents. And because of that, she hated me even more. Doesn't she know she's the reason why I'm not perfect anymore? Damn that bitch. Not only that, she left me with that stupid charger for hours. Doesn't she know it's bad for my battery? Time came when my battery gave up on her. It looked like it was bloated. And lasted for only a few minutes. She grew angry at me. She throws me everytime she feels frustrated because she's texting someone and I suddenly went dead. I cry even more. What happened to the wide-eyed girl who looked at me with adoration in her eyes? Where was she? Why did she left me with this monster who slowly kills me? Turns out I can't get her back anymore. This monster wants me out of her life. And so she bought another cellphone - the kind she's wishing for so long. I heard her talking to her Mom to find someone who's willing to buy me. This was the saddest moment of my life. I feel betrayed by a bestfriend. And so I'm here. With my new owner. I don't want to look at her eyes. It's not the same wide-eyed ones with eyeglasses. I miss Ehver. You'd think I'm stupid because I still miss her even after those things she did to me. Yes, I'm stupid. I'm still wishing for her to come back and get me. I miss those times when we were still together. Does she miss me too? I wish she does. After all, I'm her first cellphone, right? And I do believe that first love never dies. Yours Truly, Nokia 6020 Labels: blah blahs, dramas, love, rants, weird Sunday, November 1, 2009
The Greatest Man in my life turns a year older. :) Comments: 0 comments | Leave a Comment
Wanna know why Papa is the greatest man for me? - He's the one who encourages me to draw. He has become my inspiration to sketch a lot of pictures when I was a kid. - I can totally depend on him when it comes to school projects. Believe me, he has a lot of creativity when it comes to crafts. - He's great at cooking! :) Even his sinangag and egg tastes so good for me. - He knows how to do household chores. He is very far from being tamad. - I always find it touching when he calls me "bunso". Maybe it's the way he says it - in a very malambing way. - He never said any bad things to me. Nor did he ever scolded or spanked me. - I love watching cartoons, so was he. It was very cool being around him while watching cartoons because he will laugh with you. - He still kisses us goodbye whenever he's leaving for work. I don't think I will ever outgrow that. Hehe. But of course we never had the chance to do it now because he's in America. - He never forgets to go online every single day. He told us he won't be able to sleep if he did not talked to us. Aww. :) - He worries a LOT about our safety. - He is somewhat strict - in a very sweet way. - He is always reminding me to take/apply my medicine. - He carries me whenever I fall asleep at wrong places (sofas and vehicles). Hehe. :p - He sings Green Green Grass of Home to me when I was a kid for me to sleep. It's his favorite song! - He is a very patient guy. He's too willing to go around the mall just to accompany us in shopping. - After the loooooong time we (Me, Mama & Ate) spend at choosing clothes, he still finds a way to compliment whatever we bought, and carry it for us. Sweet. :) - He loves animals. - He knows a lot of trivias. - He won't say no if you ask him na subuan ka. :) - He always texts or checks on me whenever I'm out. And I'm telling you, his messages are the most caring ones! :) - He does not argue with Mama. But that doesn't mean he's not the decision-maker in the family. - He will do anything to make us happy and to fulfill our needs. - He is the gentlest and most caring guy I ever met. He is the first man I ever loved, and he will forever be.  Happy Birthday, Papa! I love and miss you so much! <3 P.S. Sorry for the not-so-great picture above. We haven't got any cute webcam pictures together. Hehe. :) Labels: family matters, love, papa's birthday |
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But darling,
You are the only exception |
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